Nerves

And we’re back. It’s been another week and here we are once again, thinking about how to take the pieces of ourselves that are out of place and put them were they belong. It’s a tough task, but together we will figure it out, even if it takes a lifetime.

So, what’s it going to be this time, you might be thinking. Well, by the title you might be able to guess at what it is.

That’s it, plain old simple nerves and anxiousness. That damn scoundrel that robs you of all your confidence and competence, usually only ever in front of other people too. It makes you feel so small… what a drag.

Now, lets murder nervousness and commit a hate crime against anxiety. You ready?

Okay, when you feel that sense of nervousness starting to take control of your body. Usual signs are: sweaty hands, increased heart rate, ears start burning red among others symptoms, that’s when you take the following steps.

  1. Ask yourself, “will this matter in 5 years?”, this isn’t a yes or no type of question, I mean unless you want it to be, but you can give answers like “Not really, no” or others that fit
  2. Next, make yourself aware of five things in your environment, these could be birds chirping in the distance, the sound of cars on the street below, the flickering of the overhanging light, the tap of a pen on a table or a chair maybe. It can be anything, just make yourself aware of it, by acknowledging that it exists.
  3. Lastly, say this line “without the self, there is nothing to worry about”. This mean that your nervousness and anxiety is caused by you thinking about yourself, and how could it not be. You are playing out the worst case scenarios about yourself in your mind. “Like if I screw up this presentation, what will my boss think of me? what will my coworkers think? Everyone’s going to laugh at me, what if I lose my job?” that worrying goes on forever, but it is always about you. So, this saying reminds you that if you remove your thinking from yourself, and instead towards the environment you find yourself, then worry fade away.

Story time, Yay!!! So, recently I was doing a presentation to one of the important leaders in my department, her name is Lee, she was a clinical doctor but became a statistician later in her career. I don’t have a beef with her, but I get the vague sense she doesn’t like me. When I did my presentation I felt the palms of my hands go sweaty and my ears started to flare up (I mean it didn’t help that seven people were in a small meeting room with no air conditioning but nonetheless). I could feel the corrosive feeling that anxiety leaves inside of you, dissolving me from the inside out.

In response I did my classic 3 questions. 1. Are you at ease? 2. Are you currently present? 3. I wonder what my next thought will be? These did slow down the effect of nervousness but it wasn’t enough. I forgot to use the technique I taught you today, which would have definitely helped more. Next time something like that happens, I’m going to be using today’s lesson to calm myself down.

I know you might be thinking, well if your other technique didn’t work fully, then why even use it at all. The answer is this, yes it didn’t completely work, but it did slow the whole negative process down; that could give me the presence of mind to use today’s technique. And it is important to remember that no single technique will work in every situation, and some are more effective than others depending on the circumstances. Life requires you to experiment with what techniques work in diverse scenarios, and sometimes one technique is not enough, a combination of skills and techniques might be the only way to overcome the challenge.

Our goal here is to give you all the tools and skills you could ask for.

That’s it for today, if you have any questions that you would like me to answer, send it to me.

Deuces to my Hedites.

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 Posted on July 23, 2021 by

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Goals goals goals…

Okay we’ve made it to this point in the whole journey and we haven’t even really touched on goal setting. So, in that case let’s get down to it. I love goals, and those people that say that goals aren’t important are some of the loathsome individuals that exist. It’s like “wow you haven’t even taken five minutes to figure out what you want to achieve in life, no wonder you feel directionless”.

And now you may already know instinctively that setting goals is an important thing or you might have heard something similar from some other source. However, I’ll still try to boil the reason down to something easily understandable. Think of it like this, most people don’t set goals for themselves, and so they go through life in a haze, aimlessly going from direction to direction; barely able to see an arm’s length in front.

Crazy as it sounds, the majority of human beings live like this; sure they can tie their shoes, wash themselves, hold a job, pay bills and maybe even get a college degree; but when it comes to life fulfilment, there is simply nothing there. That’s because they are never looking forward more than one step ahead and they tend to favour the well trodden path. As a experiment, lets boil down the lifetime of an average person from the western world:

-Born.

-Grows up and attends primary school .

-Attends high school .

-Then thinks “well I should probably go to university”, but if you asked them why they wanted to do that, they would say “Argh, I don’t know, everybody else is doing it”.

-After University they think, “Time to get a job”.

-Then time to find a partner.

-Once they stick to a single partner for a couple years they go and get married.

-Then kids come along, which means probably going to need to stop renting and move out of the studio apartment .

-So, the now family takes out a mortgage and builds lovingly little place in the suburbs .

-Both parents work jobs, they pay bills.

-They eventually retire, maybe go on a vacation or two.

-The man usually dies first, then followed by the widowed wife.

Now look, I’m not saying that is the wrong way to live your life. What I’m saying is, you have to have a reason WHY you should do those things, and that’s where goals come in.

So, striving is the only way to build a sense of fulfilment in what you do in life, but specifically striving for something we believe in; and goals are the perfectmechanism to capture that kind of striving. I mentioned earlier how most people go through life in a haze, well goals are kind of like lighthouses. They are a beacon to guide you forward; now you might not always reach the light itself but you will get closer.

It is worth remembering that your goals can change over time, and they should; but people became frightened at that thought. They start thinking “If I have to change my goals, does that mean the effort I’ve put into my existing goals is pointless?” the answer is no it is not pointless, the sheer fact that you are working towards a goal means you are developing your character and skillset, both positive things. They may also say “It takes so much energy to come up with goals, it’s too hard.” The reality is it isn’t, but if you are having trouble I have a strategy for you below.

We’re at the point where you want to learn to construct your own goals, well guess what. I lied when I said I have a strategy for you. Yep, that’s because I’ve got two strategies for you today, wow aren’t you so lucky.

So this first one helps you to make a set of basic goals if you literally have none:

Step 1. Write a list of about 5 to 6 things you love to do onto a piece of paper, they can be activities or hobbies you get a lot of enjoyment out of doing.

Step 2. Next, for each activity or hobby, you want to think about and write down two ways that you could serve your community doing that activity.

Step 3. Once you’ve done that, you will be ready for the next activity below

Okay, this activity is about giving you a WHY behind the goal and what next action to take:

Step 1. On a piece of paper, write 3 columns (Goal, Why, Next Action)

Step 2. Under the Goal column, write your goal (if you did the exercise above, it would be the way you could serve your community with one of your hobbies or activities).

Step 3. In the Why column, write down a reason why achieving that goal would be meaningful to you or others.

Step 4. Beneath the Next Action column, write what would be the very first thing you could do right now to progress that goal, and when I mean right now, I mean right NOW. By the way, the action doesn’t have to be big, it can be a small step forward.

Don’t worry, over time we will cover more unique aspects about goals, but this should be a good start.

If you have a question you want answered, comment it or message me directly.

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 Posted on July 16, 2021 by

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No more soul suckers

Okay this is a short one, but could be the most impactful to your life. If you are willing to take the dive.

Best of all it is a simple one too, because I don’t have to explain anything, it all makes sense in of itself.

So, your only task that you have to do is this, don’t watch TV or any other kind of mindless content for two weeks (podcasts I’ll allow, but consider yourself lucky, because I am a kind and understanding person). That also means no streaming services, so no Netflix, so on and so on. What will you do to fill in the time? Easy, read a book, exercise, learn a new recipe, or maybe make time with you and your partner to leave the kids at home and then drive to an empty parking lot and have hot steamy sex in the backseat. Sounds like a good time. But you know, do at least one thing that you always say you don’t have the time for.

And if you’re really ready to take that dive into the sublime unknown, leave your phone at home, see if you can survive without that thing glued to your hands. Wild huh? You might have to make eye contact for a brief moment on the train with a stranger.

I can keep listing things you could do or the reasons why it’s worth your time to do what I’m saying, but I think you already know.

So, give it a go and comment how you went, even if you fail to make the two weeks, just try it and then tell me what it was like.

If you have a question you would like answered, send it in and I’ll get to answering it.

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 Posted on July 9, 2021 by

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Three emotions to get more done

Yo Yo Yo what’s up? So, it’s been another week and here we are again. Take a moment to just take a long breath, let the oxygen soak into your body for a bit; you’ve had a long week, you deserve ten seconds before I poke at you some more.

What smell hit you first when you took that breath? Mine was the smell of the candle in my room, it’s infused with pineapple and mint fragrances. Which you might think wouldn’t work but it does strangely enough. Comment what your smell sensation was.

Okay now that we are charged and a little excited, let us move on to today’s tip for overcoming your own mind to get more done.

Now, I know I’ve talked about this in some capacity before. But what we are going to do is further refine that thought and build upon it. So, this teaching relates to everything you do, from simple tasks like cleaning the house or folding your clothes away; to more complex tasks: like arranging a birthday party, writing a creative piece or building a relationship with someone. What we cover here will have an effect on every aspect of your life if you are willing to partake.

I’ll keep the lesson simple, there are only three states that you want to be in in life, all others lead to some sort of suffering either for yourself or for others. And these three states are: Acceptance, Enjoyment and Enthusiasm.

Now you can have a mix of these three states running at the same time while doing things, that’s fine. What you need to look out for is when you are doing an activity not in those states, and if you think about the activity you are doing, you will realise that somewhere, somehow you are manifesting a form of negativity in your life.

Being aware is the first step to resolving your issues there, so your homework is to stop and notice when you aren’t in those states; and then later write down how you allowing negativity to come into your life at that moment.

Remember to comment and share.

If you have and questions you would like answered, post them and I’ll get to them.

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 Posted on July 3, 2021 by

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I am blah blah blah…

You ever find yourself saying those words, you’d be surprised that you probably do it more than you think.

But, I think these words are some of the most limiting there are in language. And you have to pay much attention to how you use them and when you use them.

To give context on why I think this way, I went through a bit of an inner spiritual journey not too long ago. And one of the biggest takeaways for me, was the restrictive use of identity labels we attach to one another and ourselves. I understand why we rely on them like a crutch, it’s because they give us a story we can follow but who says it’s reflective of reality.

And that’s the problem, you are so much more than the story you tell about yourself. So, take me for example, I could say that: I am a writer, and I am a biostatistician, I’m also a son or that I am an Australian; the list of labels could go on forever. However, even if I did make an infinite list of labels that could be attached to my identity, you still wouldn’t truly know what or who I truly am, you would be missing my Truth.

Furthermore, think about what any of those labels represent. Is there a universal interpretation to what any of them are? For instance, what does it mean to be an Australian? Many people might give you similar answers but none would ever truly be the same, everyone carries their own assumptions about what the label means. Same goes for the others: writer, biostatistician, son, choose your own…. it doesn’t matter.

So, stop using these labels on yourself, you’re so much more than that, your potential and nuance is immeasurable.

Now, you might be asking, “well than what do I refer to myself as?” Easy, just say “I am” but nothing else after. The words “I am” just by themselves capture who you are. Stay with me on this one… but you are what you are, right? So, you are existing while the world is existing around you. Which means you are in existence, which means you are what you are and nothing else, so you say “I am”. (Read it like 4 or 5 times, you’ll get the meaning, if not message me and we’ll talk)

If you have any question you’d like answered, just comment below or email me.

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 Posted on June 25, 2021 by

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Live a lifetime of Love

Let’s move on and upwards… now how are we going to do that? Well, let’s do what we always do on this journey, let’s lean in to our happiness, rather than trying to fight it. Seems hard but it’s actually quite easy. For me at least, your results may vary, hahaha you like that disclaimer before we even start, that’s how you know I’m a professional. I know how to temper expectations.

But no more wasting time, let’s get into the core of what we are going to cover together. I’m going to be your mother bird, I’ll chew the food for you then spill it out into your baby chick mouth. So start chirping away.

But here’s what I want you to write down. “Don’t seek truth, just cease to cherish opinions”

This principle might make no sense to you right now, but let me explain the genius behind it. The Truth is what you really are and where you are in the universe, yeah that’s right, we getting cosmic and shit. Opinions, are just that, any time you say “I think XYZ” about anything or anyone. That is your opinion. Problem is, people become so identified with their opinions that they lose the Truth, and that’s bad.

So the point of all this is. You actually find yourself, your Truth. When you stop putting so much attachment on your opinions, you realise that no one person can be the repository of all knowledge. This helps in removing the need to react or cast your personal judgement on everything in the world. Like it’s exhausting having to categorise all things into varying degrees of good or bad. Just let that noise go.

Look, the next time you have that feeling in your chest like you have to react to something, or want to spit out your own thoughts on a matter. Stop and ask, “Is it really worth losing my Truth“.

More to come…

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 Posted on June 18, 2021 by

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Steal gratitude, get happy now Stewpid!!!

Woah Woah Woah Woah Woah Woah Woah Woah Woah Woah Woah Woah Woah Woah Woah Woah… Woah Woah Woah

Imma stop you right there… let me ask you this, do you know how fast you were going?

You know what, I don’t want to hear it. You want to know why?

Because you have no clue about the speed you were going, I can tell because it’s written all over your face.

And look, I get it, you’re trying to get to all these places all at once, trying to make it all happen. You know, you look at people like David Bowie, Dolly Parton, Steven Hawking, Lebron James… Tim Allen. People who have accomplished great achievements during their time, and you think “man, I haven’t done shit”. That’s true, you haven’t done shit and its all your fault.

Nah jokes, don’t get me wrong, those people have done amazing things, and you’re probably like me. Haven’t done much in that arena. But who needs that when you can get your hands on the most valuable substance in existence. Gratitude.

If you can build that force of feeling into you daily life, let me tell ya. Your life will be infinitely more meaningful, more so than the achievements of those people mentioned before. And it is super easy too, but requires you to ask yourself another question; the more frequent the better.

Do you like all these questions I’m getting you to ask yourself? There’s a lot huh, you should probably get a notepad to write them all down or save them into your phone. Just a thought…

Ok, here is the big one you’ve been waiting for, you excited? Yeah you are.

*deep breath* “What do you have in your life right now, that is or could be a blessing?”

Hmmmm tasty, that is all I want you to ask yourself. Your answer will come to you, just be open to it.

And remember, acknowledging the good that is already in your life is the foundation of all abundance.

Au revoir.

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 Posted on June 11, 2021 by

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One word of peace

Well well well, once again you come crawling back to me for another sweet hit of all this… huh!!!

I must admit, I’m not too surprised really, no one can resist good advice; and I’ll be straight up, I’ve got plenty of it. How do I have such a bounty to share with you? Easy, I just banged my head against the walls of life until I got some answers. Now let me impart you with another bit of the good stuff.

You know what sucks? Doing things; even more so if it is something you don’t want to do, ugh what a bore. Am I right? No doubt I am, but that doesn’t solve the main root cause issue, you still might need to do that thing. So, what are we going to do about it? Well, if you’ve read a couple of these weekly posts, you might already have an idea.

Yep that’s right, we’re going to shift our perspective, holy shit man, who would have thought the disease was in our minds the whole time. Woah trippy man.

Okay, time to get serious alright because life isn’t a game. What you need to understand is the wording that you use has an incredible impact on all sorts of things; not just with howson feel but also when it comes to your performance. The solution to not wanting to do things that you have to is…

Simple, we just change one word. Instead of saying “I have to”, replace it with “I get to”. Shit now that I write that, I feel like we have covered this before. Fuck it, the show goes on. And you know what, a good reminder is just that, a good reminder. So be thankful for the brain bashing you’re getting right now.

Let’s try this then, next time, I don’t know… Your kids start school early in the morning, say “I get to drop my kids to school”. Or doing the washing up of dirty clothes or dishes, “I get to wash and clean the house”. You get the picture.

Now I am going to stop and prefix this technique with some tempering words. This isn’t going to make you love what you are doing, getting up early to take the kids to school or clean up the house might still not be fun. But, your attitude towards the task will be much more accepting of what needs to be done, which in turn means that the activity doesn’t have a long-lasting effect on your psyche, which could dampen your day.

Look but life is just one big game so, have fun with this one alright.

Till next week, we have fun around here don’t we?

And yes, I did say life wasn’t a game and then said that it was at the end… you like that? That’s what us writers call an untrustworthy narrator, but you would already know about that right

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 Posted on June 4, 2021 by

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Kill your past

Ayo what up dawg. You got bad memories or experiences? I bet you do, everybody does; but that is no excuse to let those negative emotions that are attached to those moments in your life, hang over you like a guillotine. Instead, what we are going to learn and practice is how to cause a diminution of that negativity that creeps up from your past.

So, it’s a pretty simple process but that doesn’t make it easy. In fact you might even try to fight it the first time.

But here we go:

Step 1. Close your eyes and visualise that moment or experience in your mind that is causing you suffering of some kind, make it as real as possible, almost as if it were happening now.

Step 2. In your mind, put a black border around the image. Almost like how the picture at the movie theatre looks, you know with those black bars above and below.

Step 3. Now, this next part depends on the memory itself. Let’s say it was your parent, partner or boss who was yelling at you for some reason. With your imagination, shift how big their nose is, make it teeny tiny or ridiculously oversized. Then change their voice, make it cartoonishly high pitch or the opposite; or another option could be to have white noise play over the image in your head to block out the person’s voice. Change the colour of the scene in some fashion, like put a purple filter over the image. Now your memory might not involve someone yelling at you, it could just be an embarrassing moment from your life. For instance, I peed my pants on the high ropes at year 5 camp, this moment didn’t involve anyone else so what I did was put white noise over the scene instead. So, depending on your memory, get creative with how you play around with the setting.

Step 4. By this point, your negative experience should look more like a weird and wacky surrealist short film than your actual past. But now it is time to take it to the next level… again. What I want you then to do is, using your mind, push this movie far away from you. Watch as it slowly gets smaller and smaller the more distance is made between you and it. Then once it has become nothing more than a dot on the horizon, let it go blip and disappear.

Step 5. Open your eyes and ask yourself, “Am I going to let that silly movie control how I live my life?” (FYI the answer is no).

Now, like all things, practice makes perfect. But just being aware of this technique is a huge addition to your arsenal against gloom.

Pro tip, just like you can use the movie image trick to push negative memories away, you can also do the opposite. You can bring positive moments closer to you.

Stay safe. Stay strong.

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 Posted on May 28, 2021 by

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Check your Climate

I feel that most people have probably gotten to the stage where they recognise that their emotions are very important. They understand that learning to manage them is a skillset that enables anyone to access a more real version of themselves.

What do I mean by a more real version of yourself? Well, when you get caught up in charged emotional states, you aren’t really yourself, at least not in the way you would like to be. Instead you become captured by feelings circulating throughout your body, in fact on some occasions you can feel their physical sensation as well. And at that moment, your actions and thoughts divert from any semblance of reason; instead you become captured by your emotions and in turn lash out and make things worse for you and everyone else.

Learning to centre oneself, especially in times of turmoil or stress, grants us the ability to respond to the world around us with increased patience and understanding. That means we can live a more genuine life and be secure in knowing that we acted appropriately, given the circumstances.

But you already knew all this right? Right.

So, there is another layer to that idea that needs to be expanded upon; if you really want to see those improvements in your life and in your writing. Think about it like this, emotions are like the weather, they come and go; but your personality is like the climate, it’s the weather over a timespan. 

Just like how climate change deniers constantly say “Look at the weather today, it’s cold, how could global warming or climate change be real then?”. But they seem to miss that, yes, the weather is cold today but over time the weather is getting warmer. In other words, climate change is occurring, and its impact is going to be heavily skewed towards negative outcomes.

Now let’s bring it all in together, emotions are your day to day responsibility to manage but it is also of prime importance to adapt your personality towards a more positive and holistic being. The reason why, is if your personality is based in that desirable mindset of contentment, then those vibes will spill into your day to day emotions which will make life less of a burden. 

All you have to do is be aware of this, and your subconscious mind will do most of the work. Just don’t forget to remind yourself about this often, because that does help a lot.

Remember, your self comes out in everything you do.

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 Posted on May 21, 2021 by

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So like what’s up?…

Thanks for asking. Well I’ve recently been doing some thinking about what’s going on in my life and the wider world and I have to say things are pretty sweet overall. I really enjoy my life and am excited at the prospect of being able to purchase a property to live in; not only so I can escape my parents (Love ya mum and dad, Woo!!!) but because I will be able to get a dog of my own. 

I’m planning on adopting a greyhound from a local greyhound recuse organisation. I thought about it and that choice seems to make the most sense as those retired race dogs need a home where they can be loved. So that’s why I wasn’t interested in getting a puppy or anything like that. I guess that’s what also happens in human rescue houses, I mean orphanages. The cute babies get adopted but the older, less cute kids remain. Hey I’m not Brad Pitt or Angelina Jolie so I’m adopting those munchkins. But an ex-race dog I can handle. 

I’m going to get a black coloured greyhound, the reason being, and when I heard this from animal rescue people I was shocked. Apparently, black coloured dogs are the hardest to find homes for; and usually are overrepresented when it comes to the dogs available to be adopted. The reason is that people perceive black dogs as more aggressive. When in reality, regardless of breed, colour has no impact on levels of aggression. God damn isn’t that a scary but profound indictment on the human psychology; you can witness the same prejudices being charged against black people in human society. Sad. 

But back to the beautiful dog, I know they will be amazing because greyhounds are naturally playful and funnily enough are incurably lazy; like they will sleep for the entire day no problem. Sounds like the dog for me. Plus have you seen how majestic they look? God damn, fashion and function together at last, the doggo that gets it right.

Okay time to back track a bit, dog will be good, the house will be good, but life is also good now. Stop!!! Hold it right there!!! You’re probably thinking “Yeah life’s great for you and all, but that’s because you’re a white male living in Australia”. Maybe, but I recently read a book called Factfulness by Hans Rosling, some Swedish dude. Essentially, this guy used United Nations data to cast a spotlight on the state of humanity and its progress over time. 

And everything’s coming up Milhouse. So, looking at the figures, approximately 80% of all children born are vaccinated against some form of disease, women of the age of 30 have on average received 9 years of education while men on average receive 10. In the last 20 years the proportion of the world population who are living in extreme poverty (living on less than $1 USD a day) has almost halved. The percentage of the world population that has access to electricity is around 80%. There aren’t just rich and poor countries, the majority of nations are middle income nations. Lastly, in the past 100 years, the deaths from natural disasters has been cut in half.

Yet what is crazy, is that if you watch the news or look at what is feed to us on social media, the world seems to be in a never ending crisis, which seems to be getter worse. Some might argue that horrible things do still happen today, and I agree no one is taking away from the fact that there are still tragedies.

But as a species we have made great strides to ameliorate them and reduce their likelihood of occurring. Remember words like ‘bad’ or ‘good’ are states of being, while ‘better’ and ‘worse’ are directions. So something can be in a bad state but be getting better, just like things can be in a good state but getting worse.

All in all, be grateful for whatever you have in life. And as Future once said “I got red bottoms on… *laughs… life is good”.

FYI: another story releasing soon, get excited, also I’m going to be writing a special piece only about a page or two long about something completely different to what I normally write about. 

Stay tuned.

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 Posted on May 14, 2021 by

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Ever get that feeling of Writer’s Block?

Hell yeah, but not in the way it sounds. It’s not that I lack imagination or creativity, I’d argue that it’s more to do with how I’ve allowed myself to fall into unproductive routines and thought patterns. Whoops…

A shift has occurred and I’m not too prideful to say that I haven’t adapted to it in the best way. In the past, let’s say six to eight months, I have moved homes twice. I’m twenty four and living with my parents, as the city of Sydney is a notoriously difficult market to get into when it comes to housing. Side-note, that’s not because there is a lack of housing supply, or demand is too high. No, what it is is that there are tens of thousands of empty houses and apartments which are owned by large investor groups who buy up swathes of property. That in turn creates the idea of false scarcity, and then prices go up, and then those investors sell for a ridiculous capital gain, which was entirely safe to begin with, because the government in Australia essentially insures the property industry against losses. Well, safe if you’re a large property group, unlucky for individual people.

So, we had been living at my childhood home in Carlingford for twenty four years, the house served its purpose but it got to the point where it was so run down as a structure that it became too hard to maintain (It was built in the fifties). My mum had been trying to sell for years, but the house was just never ready. In the end, my mum pulled off a miracle and single handedly got the house ready to sell; and she did it, it set a record for the highest price in our suburb at the time. Yay…

Problem was, where were we to live? Yeah we sold our old place, but we hadn’t secured a new residence. Through my mother’s vehement determination she managed to secure a majestic 5 bedroom rental property in Northmead. I’ll say this, I’ve never felt so upper middle class than in that house, at least at this point in my life. It was as if I would finally get to meet those “Joneses” that everyone talks about; hopefully I’ll learn to keep up with them, whatever that means.

Nah but seriously, that place was mad. I had a much larger room that could fit a half metre camping table for a study desk as well as my bed, what a luxury. But the best thing was that I settled into a wonderful writing routine, very productive, very good.

Shock!!! Guess what? Well if you were paying attention at the start you’d know what’s next.

We moved again.

Now I’m not blaming anyone here, but ever since I have been trying to find my way back to that production powerhouse that was my time at the rental. I know deep down it is my own failure to stick to my own principles, jeez not those things again. But I know that being aware of this is the first step of ameliorating the situation.

Oh the new place is really good too. My parents bought this really nice place out in Kellyville, I think it’s going to be the home they stick with for quite some time. My bedroom is even bigger than before, I can fit a metre long camping table as my study desk now. Wins on wins.

So in the end, really it’s my own fault but I’m on the way up so what’s there to be down about? Nothing really.

Oh and you’re probably wondering how I know about the empty apartments and houses in Sydney. Well they are reports out there that show that there are tens of thousands of properties with less than 50L of water usage a week. 50L is nothing, especially over a week, so in reality no one is living there, not even renters.

Bonsoir (Yeah I know saying that is relational to your time, look… just deal with it aight )

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